Thursday, April 27, 2006

So true.....

...."Well, preparation isnt always the best route.... sometimes you just close your eyes, turn up the stereo and punch the accelerator!!!!!!!!!"

I could not have said it better myself. Life is fun and exciting right now and I cant always "prepare" my reactions and the outcome, sometimes things just happen. I need to let them just happen and enjoy the ride.

Friday, April 21, 2006

freedom of speech?

I think it is disappearing FAST in this country. This woman is arrested for yelling out what she believes??? Harrassing a foriegn official..come on!! Bush is such a fucking idiot and so are his policies!!

Read this:

Am I am alone in thinking, there are REAL criminals we should be arresting?? FUCK!

Monday, April 17, 2006

Funny as hell!

Found this while "stumbling" on the here to launch the website and an easier to read version. Too funny....enjoy!

Saturday, April 15, 2006

She is finding her way....

...and nothing, I mean nothing, has brought me greater joy then to watch her find happiness for herself. It is not easy, but when you do it, you feel liberated.

Sunshine, I love you and may you continue on your amazing journey with few bumps in the road from now on.

I love you.

Friday, April 14, 2006

I love my life, but......

there are parts of what I use to have that I miss so much. I am feeling this pull and I am hoping it disappears after my trip back home. When I get back to Seattle, I will know if this is the place, after this trip back home. My perspective has changed a lot in the past year. I am missing the connection of my friends back home. These feeling have become paramount in the last couple of weeks, as I get closed to my departure date.

Will I want to get back on the plane? Recently I have realized how far 3,000 miles is. Too far on some days, like today.

Monday, April 10, 2006

My green kitchen!

My newly painted kitchen. Dreamweaver green! 1st coat & I love it! I call it dreamweaver green, since I had Lowes match the color off of my dreamweaver book, when I could not find a green color in the swatches I really liked! The first coat is applied, I think I will need at least 3 coats for it to be the color I want. I love it! Having an apt you can paint is awesome....!

Bunny Video

Wrong, oh so wrong, but as is usually the case, funny as hell!

Enjoy !!

The Easter Bunny Hates You on Transbuddha

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Time to continue the educational experience!

I went to an open house today at Seattle University focusing on the Graduate program. I came away from there, having found my next BIG THING!! feels so good to be this completely excited about something again! I have visted UW(university of washington), one of the reasons I moved here was to attend UW. Well, as much as it is an amazing place, and I would get an incredible education, I have found somewhere that feels like it fits. It is like Lyndon State on steriods! The same kind of laid back atmosphere, and small class size and campus. I attended the info session about their MBA program, and then talked with a couple of professors from the business school and the director of admissions and I was hooked! Also in my research about the place, I found out you can do a dual degree of an MBA and a JD(law degree) and my first thought was why not? And really, why not? It would cost me the same as one degree.....and I could have a doctorate by the time I am 40! Do I want to be a lawyer, not really, but its more about the fact I can do it....and why not? If got the degree I would have it, and would be enpowered with more options, depending upon how I want to utilize the degree. It is something I would have to give some more thought too. The one thing I know for certain, my goal for the next yr is too get myself to the place where I can apply and be accepted for the MBA program. I can do this part time and still work full time. Alot of work, but I can do it! I want too do it! I am very excited.

Goodbye little boy

One door closes and another one opens.

Very true, so many things have happened in my life in the last year, the most important one being, I have killed off, once and for all, the scared little boy who lived (for so long) in me. He was always there. I am going home and I am returning home without a part of me, he is gone. Sometime in the past couple of weeks, he left. He has exited the building sorta of speak. He is gone. I was pushing him out, slowly, but when I would sit at home alone and deep in thought, he would creep back in. He was there to remind me to not get too comfortable, something is bound to happen, be on edge. I am not anymore. I know where it all stems from and I have addressed so many of these issues in the past year. I have the most liberated feeling now, like anything is truely possible in your life, you need to have guidence and support and ask for help. We are not meant to go thru this world alone...

Because of this, he has left. I am who I want to be, he is not needed there to guard the door. The fucking door has swung wide open and the sun is very very bright. He didnt like the sun, so he left.

Now, in 5 weeks I fly home to Vermont. I fly home an entirely different person. So many things back there I have to resolve for me, before I get back on the plane. I ran from there as fast I possibly could, even after all these years I could not get rid of my bad dream where I would wake up and be back there, trapped, unable to breath and never have the ability to escape. That bad dream has ended, when the scared boy left, he took that with him. Now I dream daily of an amazing life in my new home and the life I am building. It is never easy, but I wonder, if it were easy, would it be as much fun?

When I come back I will feel very good, I will feel closure and I can move on. I can close so many doors for once. Lock them and move forward. Walk into the sunlight.

You can go home again and you can be happy to leave.